My Thoughts Have A Twist

[Luckyv2]

DISEASE vs FREEDOM


I once had a friend who treated me right
She said that she loved me but we would fight

At first we had a very special thing
With laughter, love, and a diamond ring

She made me feel as if I was a man
Then she looked again and she ran

She ran her blood into my vain
She started to take away all my pain

But when after awhile she would leave
I would have too pull up my sleeve

To find her once again in me
But she wouldn't set me free

She took control of the life that we had
The blood thickened and turned bad

Why did you turn on me so much
You were with me dinner, breakfast, and lunch

Although you would be my main course
You became my only source

Chrystal don't you still love me a little bit
Why did you have to make me feel like sh*t

Did you come to destroy my life
You took away my children and my wife

You promised that we would never end
You said my life would be only love send

But yet you turned you back on me
You brought heartache and cut down my tree

You said that I was your only one
But yet your trickery took my son

You said that no matter what would be
That you would always be good to me

Now you have me with heart and soul
You keep me on the miserable roll

Why can't you just go your way
And leave this world not tomorrow but today

Why did you turn so very bad
At first you made me so very glad

Can't you see how you have lied to him
You have kept them living in sin

You have taken a lot of things
So now I must take back that diamond ring

I have the power through my LORD today
To put you to rest and make you lay

But yet I hear your voice inside
Saying Babe Babe just one more ride

But yet one is too many and a thousand in never enough
You always did like playing rough

So now I have a choice to make
I will throw the ring into the lake

The lake of death is in your life
No longer will I have you as wife

So thanks for the adventure down this lane
I hope to God that you never rain

For now you know how very real it feels
That love like that will actually kill

So now you have lost you power over me
For today my Lord has set me free

[Peggy]

A unique perspective on drug addiction. Wonderful writing.

[skyrider777]

very good writing, the pain is there.

[Luckyv2]

Thanks and I still find it very much real even today. Although I haven't used for almost two years it would be so damn easy to go back to the pain. I think about the last month and all the crap that I've had happen. Yes it is so alive in my head still but I don't act on those thoughts or at least I haven't for today :)

I have a bunch more of my thoughts I will bring some of the others over as well. Going to try and take a nap

[Peggy]

Wish I could give you a real hug, but I hope a virtual one will suffice?

:bighug: